My Twisted Mind

I know that I've threatened to close this blog a few times already. But I guess it really is over now.

I've been baring my life for people to read : my anger, my rantings, and a periodic glimpse at my heart. And this time, I think I wrote enough about me. I don't want to let people in anymore. (And it's not that I write a lot anyway!)

In life, (for me, that is) I don't believe in leading life with no regrets. Sometimes my mind just wanders to times when I think that I could stop from making mistakes and to hurt people in the end. Maybe I should have never taken that train to KL in the first place. And maybe I should have never trusted when people say that they prefer the same lauk every single day. Because people change. It's my fault anyway, I don't change together. I'm needy. And I just needed some of your time. I know you did and spent a lot, but I just needed time, that's all. Enough to make me believe that love is about trying to work things out, no matter how bumpy the ride is.Or maybe a different passenger.

Over the past two years, I changed a lot. From work to personal life and even to being independent. I've always been independent, but I guess when you occupy your life with someone, that makes you a dependent person, right? It is so hard when you had your whole life turned to someone only to realize that you have nothing when things ended. My bad, then. And as much as I want believe that I won't trust anyone to care for my heart anymore, I know that is not entirely true. Because it's just me. And it's about time I admit that I am weak.

Thank you for the directions, and thank you for everything. I'm sure there are lots who share your thoughts. Someone is right to ask me, "What more do I want?" Maybe a lot. Expectations. They always let you down.

I'm not shutting anyone out of my life. I just don't want my bucket of expectations to be filled, only for it to be emptied again. You can always say hi, but please don't expect me to say hi back. I'm sorry, I'm weak. I'm sure you'll be fine.  

Goodbye.

Congratulations Ghoyye!!!

Now...when is Makosie's turn? Tracy!!!!

Dear readers,

I'm rearranging my life.

My life has been an emotional roller-coaster ride. From window crashed, to heartbroken, to flat tires, to money matters, to job, to the resigned teacher, and the list goes on.

I don't mind with all the physical things that have been going on. I really don't. They make me stronger, wiser and teach me how to solve problems. But when it comes to the matter of hearts, hmm.... Let's just say that I'm strongly tied to my emotions. It's almost my thinking mechanism. Rules and plans always bend because of my emotions. I breakdown. I melt.

I envy those who can just move on.

Sepanjangku bisa atasi semua,
Aku tetap diam.

And I still live on hopes and in dreams.

I was window-shopping in Cold Storage (Yes, the world rejoice! Alamanda now has Cold Storage) when I saw one of my biggest sins (or greatest indulgences as I put it)... Clotted Cream. Click here to learn more about clotted cream.

I fell in love with this dessert during our infamous trip to Cornwall. You eat them with scones and strawberry jam. Rodda's produce the best cream around. Owh..heavenly!

BUT!!!!!

....... I didn't buy it. RM 30 for a single jar? And on top of that it'll clog my arteries? Oh well, maybe some other time then.

I still heart you though, Cornish Clotted Cream!

"Funny thoughts" will most likely feature things that can make me laugh or at least smile when I think of them. I will usually try to think of these funny thoughts to remind me of the good times I had.

There was this one time... oh well, you guys won't find this funny because you have got to see it to laugh about it.

Some other time then! Hahahahah

Korang yang duduk unit finance ni kenapa baru nak buat asset tagging tahun 2005-2006 punya? Mana aku nak cari sebab aku pun tak masuk lagi.

So, untuk tahun ni punya asset verification korang nak buat tahun 2010 atau 2011 kan???